Hello again, little circle of blogging comrades!
I’m popping in to let you know where I’ve been…and where I’ll likely be in the months ahead.
You might recall that we have three teenage sons. (And, as I should share in more detail by way of personal testimony at some point, that they were conceived in my previous relationship, after which my current husband adopted them as his own.)
What you might not know is that my husband and I have desired to have more children for a long time. We’ve been married for 12 years now, and that aspect of our journey together has at many times been challenging and painful.
At out third son’s birth, I foolishly (and I believe, in my case, sinfully) gave into pressure to have a tubal ligation, even though I was already long separated from the boys’ biological father, and despite the wise counsel the Lord sent me through a godly friend at that time. After my husband and I were married, as soon as we were logistically able, I had surgery to reverse the ligation . The surgeon cautioned against hope because of the thorough manner in which my ligation had been done, but we were blissfully hopeful and trusted that the Lord would do according to His will. Years passed with no sign of pregnancy whatsoever.
By the last time we moved in 2012, we had released the emotional drain of “trying” and left any future children more fully in God’s hands. We moved into a smaller house and in order to do so got rid of the last of the baby things we’d held on to. We had been exploring the possibility of adoption and foster care for years as well, and continue to, but various circumstances have kept those doors closed for the time being.
By this time last year, my husband and I felt like we had finished grieving the possibility of more biological children. We became more acutely focused on finishing well with the boys and simple faithfulness in the life God has laid out before us here and now.
Last summer I began having some reproductive health problems and began receiving treatment for them. I could feel the nest nearing its emptying, and although I had mixed feelings about it I also had a great deal of peace.
…And then, one morning when I poured my coffee, I almost threw up. That has only ever happened to me under one circumstance…but I tried not to get excited.
I picked up a cheap-o pregnancy test, stole off alone to take it, and sure enough, it was positive! It was such a joy to call my husband with the news!
We’re expecting our first daughter in April!
Praise God for His perfect timing, His perfect provision, and His generous blessings! 🙂
I do have whole series of blog posts in the works in the background over here. The last year has been packed full of lots of processing and Bible study. I intend to proofread and publish many of them, Lord willing. But, you know I’ve said that before, so time will tell. You know I try not to be ruled by the blog. 🙂
I pray you are all well and growing in grace! I’m so thankful for the ways we stay “in touch” to varying degrees online. The Lord uses several of you to bless me in ways you may never know, and I thank God for you!